The Same Bullshit!

Money

2009-11-06T14:07:00.005-05:00

I really don't know how to deal with this! My ex stolen money from my bank account in London,
as I don't have permanent address in the UK right now, he offered that my bank card goes to his address, and stupid me oh so stupid I agreed,
I asked the bank not to send a new pin, I'm going to use my old one, but they did it otherwise, sent my pin, and he took around 2K British pounds which equals around $3300 US, I am so bumped and mad at myself, and most of all I feel like I want harm to come his way!

I still can not get over the fact that after 10 years of dating, being friends and what not he did this to me, and I went for it!

COOL BLONDE

2009-11-05T00:31:00.004-05:00

Elle’s style editor and my idol Kate Lanphear deserves some space on my blog.

I adore her platinum hair, and all the outfits, she's pretty cool for being born in Washington DC (sarcasm)

Worked for Australian Vogue, and Bazaar if I'm not mistaking.

Hope 4 soulmate

2009-11-03T01:29:00.008-05:00

Right now I feel like there is no hope for me, I'm really crumbling , all over sudden I've lost braveness in me to fight and get what's mine, I need to find strength I need to get David back
, it took me 10 years to release that he's the love of my life, took me 2 long term relationships, and loads of random men! Now I am 10 year older as he is, but sure wiser, now for me is to push and find out to see if he held any feelings for so many years for me. I know I sound selfish, but I really know he's my soulmate.

Natasha Bedingfield comes to mind with SOULMATE

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Rihanna, prince, and lilly allen love

2009-11-02T13:22:00.001-05:00

only if love was simple

2009-10-31T21:03:00.001-04:00

I think I can blog from iPhone

2009-10-30T00:43:00.001-04:00

Hello dolls

-- Posted from my iPhone

I'm weird inside

2009-10-29T23:29:00.003-04:00

I had a very non entertaining day most the opposite, some may think I went to get rest at the ER, I slept there a lot.

Since before 6am I started moaning from a stomach pain I thought the aneurysm gave in and I was dying!
Than I spent seemed like hours in the bathroom, finally crawled out and passed out, I'm serious I fainted! and after that I remember IV, blood pressure machine, and heart sound. I thought wow I didn't die?
I turned my head to the left and there he was I swear he looked like a guardian angel Emergency Doctor! I think I almost fell in love, he smiled, held my hand, and rubbed my hair. I'm contemplating on sending him a Thank You card!

Europe my love

2009-10-29T02:16:00.002-04:00

in 2 weeks I am taking my baby for a trip to Europe and my hometown, I really can't wait, I haven't been home since 2002...

All the pics I found on "we "we <3 it"

S/S 2010 shoes

2009-10-27T15:15:00.003-04:00

McQueen

Galiano

Versace

Gucci

PAIN IS PAINFUL <— click

2009-10-20T23:39:00.001-04:00

Tonight is not about wanting shoes, or jeans, or blonder hair its just about me...A week ago I started having pains in my chest, and other parts of my body, ended up in the ER, than hospital, of course I was giving bunch of pain killers on the way out home which made me so happy, I thought yeah I can loose some weight now, because thats what happened after the first and seventh surgery, I lost like 20 lb addiction to pain killers is rough, but I thought cold turkey was worth going through for losing pounds! As I tried the pain killers now, my body is so used to them that I have to take 4 times bigger doze more than before, and I'm by myself most of the time with my almost 3 years old baby, so this morning I realized I can't do this again, I had my mother here coming from Europe to look after me and my baby few times before, now I'm alone.. I can't be walking high, half a sleep around my baby evan if I'm in pain, so i lowered the doze to 1 pill when I really hurt, like right now I'm crying out loud the pain is unbelievable, but I took the allowed daily doze, and thats it, no more tonight, I may have some hot tea, and watch tv, or read the blogs, or one of 10's of books I bought.

I'm still around peeps

2009-10-15T22:06:00.002-04:00

I haven't been really able or in the mood to write on my blog, last week I ended up in the ER, and stayed in the hospital, my heart was not at ease, my blood was to thin so my heart and body gave in to the pain!

I'm home, feeling better, and being highly medicated, which I like at time hehehe ;-)

Hopefully I will catch up on reading and posting soon for myself, my lovely follower Rachel, and the lurkers I love ya'll!!! <3

STYLIST~A

2009-10-02T23:37:00.003-04:00

Business card

I guess they've had dated, have a gorgeous son Jordan together
I had this haircut
Now I want this haircut

April!

I've been meaning to do this post for weeks, and never thought where, how to start it.

I read, talk, read with/about alot of fashion stylists, and believe me Rachel Zoe ain't the shit LOL! Do you suppose to use LOL in blogging? nah!

So since I watched Candy Girls on E, I almost have a stylist crush on April Roomet, Philly born and raised California/Goldy girl!

She's in her mid late 30's but her style is banging mixing couture with urban is so hot. April was discovered as a stylist about 13 years ago while modeling, she works with Snoop, and Santigold, styled over 100 music videos, some movies, and tv shows, and I'm stalking her on Twitter. We do do exchange messages, but I would love to get closer to her, see her work.

There sure will be more posts and pics of April!

REALLY RANDOM SHIT I LIKE

2009-09-28T23:52:00.002-04:00

Louis Vuitton clutch studs!~!!!

Louis Vuitton Mirror Alma LOVE <3
Louis Vuitton sunnies
Goyard clutch (April Roomet)
Christian Louboutin's fall

More LV
I <<<333
I heart Melodys haircut (and jewelry)

Sophie My Big Chested Darling

2009-09-28T18:36:00.007-04:00

Sophie Dahl is my fave model on the planet (well Kate Moss is but...) born in London in 1977, discovered by Isabella Blow whom was a Vogue stylist even though her boobs size was 38DD GOSH thats HUGE and i bet heavy! Featured in Elton John video, and on cover of Italian Vogue YEAH! Than within years British Vogue follows, Harpers Bazaar, and more magazines and ads such as YSL OPIUM campaign where Sophie's NAKED bitches.

She looked well over weight for a model, wasn't flat chested, and yet many designers admired her!

“I'd rather be treated like any other model - being booked because a client likes the look of me, not because I'm size 16 with big tits. There's nothing sexual about model's typical androgynous skinniness.”
Sophie Dahl quote

“As a child, I looked like one of those adopt-a-child posters, with round (National Health Service) spectacles and a patch over my left eye. By the time I was 17, I looked like a refugee from the Playboy Club, with enormous bosoms, blonde hair and a liking for very short skirts and fishnets. So many people commented about my body that I lost all sense of it myself. I see old pictures and think I really was quite big.” quoted the western australian

TIRED yall

2009-09-26T22:32:00.003-04:00

I am so drained mentally and physically! Drank about 2 gallons of wine this week, window shopped online, shopped on Ebay, stared at Ashish for TopShop boots, when I had enough money they were effing sold out in 20 min on US & UK sites FML!

So I went to Apple and bough 24'' iMac because I don't have enough computers....

Also I'm suffering from PMfuckingS this week and hate it!

J.CREW JENNAS PICS

2009-09-24T00:31:00.000-04:00

OCTOBER

I really like L.A.M.B. 2010 Collection

2009-09-19T23:12:00.008-04:00

2009-09-18T12:04:00.000-04:00

this is recent H&M advert from the October Vogue Germany. The layout features Karen Elson and Patrick Petitjean against a background swirling orange and red leaves.

Marc Jacobs at Spring 2010 Fashion Week

2009-09-17T17:28:00.001-04:00

Marc Jacobs at Spring 2010 Fashion Week

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I GET SO CONFUSED DURING FASHION WEEK

2009-09-16T09:17:00.000-04:00

I never know right away what I like it takes time but this year I like A. Wang!

RihRih wore da ridicules sunnies!!!

2009-09-11T00:38:00.003-04:00

FASHION'S NIGHT OUT 2010

2009-09-10T17:26:00.003-04:00

I really regret not staying in London until at least tonight ; - [

Keys on my macbook don't work so I'm using this on sceen keyboard, ITS SOOOO SLOWWWWW!!!

ITALIAN, POLISH, JAPANESE STREET STYLE

2009-09-09T02:11:00.000-04:00

TODAY WAS HIS BIRTHDAY

2009-09-08T23:56:00.003-04:00

Felt really weird celebrating his bday without our son, so i didn't make a big fuss of it, i cooked dinner , he was not around most of the day and evening. I regret i didn't go out with my girls!

Happy birthday Cedee

PRESIDENT BARACK OBAMA

2009-09-08T11:11:00.003-04:00

Prepared Remarks of President Barack Obama
Back to School Event

Arlington, Virginia
September 8, 2009

The President: Hello everyone – how’s everybody doing today? I’m here with students at Wakefield High School in Arlington, Virginia. And we’ve got students tuning in from all across America, kindergarten through twelfth grade. I’m glad you all could join us today.

I know that for many of you, today is the first day of school. And for those of you in kindergarten, or starting middle or high school, it’s your first day in a new school, so it’s understandable if you’re a little nervous. I imagine there are some seniors out there who are feeling pretty good right now, with just one more year to go. And no matter what grade you’re in, some of you are probably wishing it were still summer, and you could’ve stayed in bed just a little longer this morning.

I know that feeling. When I was young, my family lived in Indonesia for a few years, and my mother didn’t have the money to send me where all the American kids went to school. So she decided to teach me extra lessons herself, Monday through Friday – at 4:30 in the morning.

Now I wasn’t too happy about getting up that early. A lot of times, I’d fall asleep right there at the kitchen table. But whenever I’d complain, my mother would just give me one of those looks and say, "This is no picnic for me either, buster."

So I know some of you are still adjusting to being back at school. But I’m here today because I have something important to discuss with you. I’m here because I want to talk with you about your education and what’s expected of all of you in this new school year.

Now I’ve given a lot of speeches about education. And I’ve talked a lot about responsibility.

I’ve talked about your teachers’ responsibility for inspiring you, and pushing you to learn.

I’ve talked about your parents’ responsibility for making sure you stay on track, and get your homework done, and don’t spend every waking hour in front of the TV or with that Xbox.

I’ve talked a lot about your government’s responsibility for setting high standards, supporting teachers and principals, and turning around schools that aren’t working where students aren’t getting the opportunities they deserve.

But at the end of the day, we can have the most dedicated teachers, the most supportive parents, and the best schools in the world – and none of it will matter unless all of you fulfill your responsibilities. Unless you show up to those schools; pay attention to those teachers; listen to your parents, grandparents and other adults; and put in the hard work it takes to succeed.

And that’s what I want to focus on today: the responsibility each of you has for your education. I want to start with the responsibility you have to yourself.

Every single one of you has something you’re good at. Every single one of you has something to offer. And you have a responsibility to yourself to discover what that is. That’s the opportunity an education can provide.

Maybe you could be a good writer – maybe even good enough to write a book or articles in a newspaper – but you might not know it until you write a paper for your English class. Maybe you could be an innovator or an inventor – maybe even good enough to come up with the next iPhone or a new medicine or vaccine – but you might not know it until you do a project for your science class. Maybe you could be a mayor or a Senator or a Supreme Court Justice, but you might not know that until you join student government or the debate team.

And no matter what you want to do with your life – I guarantee that you’ll need an education to do it. You want to be a doctor, or a teacher, or a police officer? You want to be a nurse or an architect, a lawyer or a member of our military? You’re going to need a good education for every single one of those careers. You can’t drop out of school and just drop into a good job. You’ve got to work for it and train for it and learn for it.

And this isn’t just important for your own life and your own future. What you make of your education will decide nothing less than the future of this country. What you’re learning in school today will determine whether we as a nation can meet our greatest challenges in the future.

You’ll need the knowledge and problem-solving skills you learn in science and math to cure diseases like cancer and AIDS, and to develop new energy technologies and protect our environment. You’ll need the insights and critical thinking skills you gain in history and social studies to fight poverty and homelessness, crime and discrimination, and make our nation more fair and more free. You’ll need the creativity and ingenuity you develop in all your classes to build new companies that will create new jobs and boost our economy.

We need every single one of you to develop your talents, skills and intellect so you can help solve our most difficult problems. If you don’t do that – if you quit on school – you’re not just quitting on yourself, you’re quitting on your country.

Now I know it’s not always easy to do well in school. I know a lot of you have challenges in your lives right now that can make it hard to focus on your schoolwork.

I get it. I know what that’s like. My father left my family when I was two years old, and I was raised by a single mother who struggled at times to pay the bills and wasn’t always able to give us things the other kids had. There were times when I missed having a father in my life. There were times when I was lonely and felt like I didn’t fit in.

So I wasn’t always as focused as I should have been. I did some things I’m not proud of, and got in more trouble than I should have. And my life could have easily taken a turn for the worse.

But I was fortunate. I got a lot of second chances and had the opportunity to go to college, and law school, and follow my dreams. My wife, our First Lady Michelle Obama, has a similar story. Neither of her parents had gone to college, and they didn’t have much. But they worked hard, and she worked hard, so that she could go to the best schools in this country.

Some of you might not have those advantages. Maybe you don’t have adults in your life who give you the support that you need. Maybe someone in your family has lost their job, and there’s not enough money to go around. Maybe you live in a neighborhood where you don’t feel safe, or have friends who are pressuring you to do things you know aren’t right.

But at the end of the day, the circumstances of your life – what you look like, where you come from, how much money you have, what you’ve got going on at home – that’s no excuse for neglecting your homework or having a bad attitude. That’s no excuse for talking back to your teacher, or cutting class, or dropping out of school. That’s no excuse for not trying.

Where you are right now doesn’t have to determine where you’ll end up. No one’s written your destiny for you. Here in America, you write your own destiny. You make your own future.

That’s what young people like you are doing every day, all across America.

Young people like Jazmin Perez, from Roma, Texas. Jazmin didn’t speak English when she first started school. Hardly anyone in her hometown went to college, and neither of her parents had gone either. But she worked hard, earned good grades, got a scholarship to Brown University, and is now in graduate school, studying public health, on her way to being Dr. Jazmin Perez.

I’m thinking about Andoni Schultz, from Los Altos, California, who’s fought brain cancer since he was three. He’s endured all sorts of treatments and surgeries, one of which affected his memory, so it took him much longer – hundreds of extra hours – to do his schoolwork. But he never fell behind, and he’s headed to college this fall.

And then there’s Shantell Steve, from my hometown of Chicago, Illinois. Even when bouncing from foster home to foster home in the toughest neighborhoods, she managed to get a job at a local health center; start a program to keep young people out of gangs; and she’s on track to graduate high school with honors and go on to college.

Jazmin, Andoni and Shantell aren’t any different from any of you. They faced challenges in their lives just like you do. But they refused to give up. They chose to take responsibility for their education and set goals for themselves. And I expect all of you to do the same.

That’s why today, I’m calling on each of you to set your own goals for your education – and to do everything you can to meet them. Your goal can be something as simple as doing all your homework, paying attention in class, or spending time each day reading a book. Maybe you’ll decide to get involved in an extracurricular activity, or volunteer in your community. Maybe you’ll decide to stand up for kids who are being teased or bullied because of who they are or how they look, because you believe, like I do, that all kids deserve a safe environment to study and learn. Maybe you’ll decide to take better care of yourself so you can be more ready to learn. And along those lines, I hope you’ll all wash your hands a lot, and stay home from school when you don’t feel well, so we can keep people from getting the flu this fall and winter.

Whatever you resolve to do, I want you to commit to it. I want you to really work at it.

I know that sometimes, you get the sense from TV that you can be rich and successful without any hard work -- that your ticket to success is through rapping or basketball or being a reality TV star, when chances are, you’re not going to be any of those things.

But the truth is, being successful is hard. You won’t love every subject you study. You won’t click with every teacher. Not every homework assignment will seem completely relevant to your life right this minute. And you won’t necessarily succeed at everything the first time you try.

That’s OK. Some of the most successful people in the world are the ones who’ve had the most failures. JK Rowling’s first Harry Potter book was rejected twelve times before it was finally published. Michael Jordan was cut from his high school basketball team, and he lost hundreds of games and missed thousands of shots during his career. But he once said, "I have failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed."

These people succeeded because they understand that you can’t let your failures define you – you have to let them teach you. You have to let them show you what to do differently next time. If you get in trouble, that doesn’t mean you’re a troublemaker, it means you need to try harder to behave. If you get a bad grade, that doesn’t mean you’re stupid, it just means you need to spend more time studying.

No one’s born being good at things, you become good at things through hard work. You’re not a varsity athlete the first time you play a new sport. You don’t hit every note the first time you sing a song. You’ve got to practice. It’s the same with your schoolwork. You might have to do a math problem a few times before you get it right, or read something a few times before you understand it, or do a few drafts of a paper before it’s good enough to hand in.

Don’t be afraid to ask questions. Don’t be afraid to ask for help when you need it. I do that every day. Asking for help isn’t a sign of weakness, it’s a sign of strength. It shows you have the courage to admit when you don’t know something, and to learn something new. So find an adult you trust – a parent, grandparent or teacher; a coach or counselor – and ask them to help you stay on track to meet your goals.

And even when you’re struggling, even when you’re discouraged, and you feel like other people have given up on you – don’t ever give up on yourself. Because when you give up on yourself, you give up on your country.

The story of America isn’t about people who quit when things got tough. It’s about people who kept going, who tried harder, who loved their country too much to do anything less than their best.

It’s the story of students who sat where you sit 250 years ago, and went on to wage a revolution and found this nation. Students who sat where you sit 75 years ago who overcame a Depression and won a world war; who fought for civil rights and put a man on the moon. Students who sat where you sit 20 years ago who founded Google, Twitter and Facebook and changed the way we communicate with each other.

So today, I want to ask you, what’s your contribution going to be? What problems are you going to solve? What discoveries will you make? What will a president who comes here in twenty or fifty or one hundred years say about what all of you did for this country?

Your families, your teachers, and I are doing everything we can to make sure you have the education you need to answer these questions. I’m working hard to fix up your classrooms and get you the books, equipment and computers you need to learn. But you’ve got to do your part too. So I expect you to get serious this year. I expect you to put your best effort into everything you do. I expect great things from each of you. So don’t let us down – don’t let your family or your country or yourself down. Make us all proud. I know you can do it.

Thank you, God bless you, and God bless America.

www.whitehouse.gov